This is not the first time I have been offended and insulted to the point of helplessness. I am aware that I can never truly please everyone and that someone will always have a negative opinion of me and what I do. It’s not that I have not experienced this before, because I have, so many times in the past. I just want to reexamine my emotions and see how I should go about tomorrow already knowing that it won’t go well at all.
I have had friendships that came and went. I have had people who turned their backs on me. And I have long accepted that it will always be part of life. You only stay in relationships with people who want to stay in a relationship with you. And that’s not just for romantic relationships but friendships as well. And today was a kind of turning point of sorts.
One of my friends called this day the Tipping Point. In a way it is. I started seeing the circumstances I’m currently in for what they really are. How much certain people mean to me. If I even mean anything to certain people. I felt very overwhelmed today. Overwhelmed. Offended. I don’t know if people had forgotten, but hi, I’m human too. I’m capable of feeling emotions. And I feel insulted when someone slams the door on my face. I feel offended when somebody offers to help me with something but doesn’t really want to help and ends up banging stuff on the table. I know the sense of duty is still there, and I’m thankful for it. I truly am. But please don’t forget that you’re facing a human person as well. And that person is capable of hurting. I don’t mind any negative opinion because they will always be there, but please don’t make me feel as if I’m worthless.
